I've never been there.

[tinyjo]

Fireworks always make me feel oddly melancholy and nervous but I don't understand why. On one level I know it's because the sounds remind me or make me think of the sounds of a city of war. Sitting at home on November the 5th I think of Sarajevo, of the destruction of streets, of the TV footage of war reporters in the hills watching the city being destroyed. This is what war would sound like, I think.

What I don't understand is *why* it has such a strong effect on me. I wasn't young enough to be hugely impressionable at the time of Bosnia, 10 or so by then if I remember correctly. Or is that still an age at which fears are formed? Or was there another conflict in my earlier childhood? One that I was too young to remember the name of, but remember the sound of perfectly? Help me out, you older people.

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Re: fear the skies

[cleanskies.livejournal.com]

God, Thatcher was scary, wasn't she? Fireworks have *nothing* on her gargoyle face. You're right about it not being visceral, but that didn't stop it getting to me. My father (and some of my teachers) were very enthusiastic conservatives so it was a bit of an education about nasty grown-ups, too ...

Re: fear the skies

[tinyjo.livejournal.com]

God, Thatcher was scary, wasn't she?

Yes, yes and yes again. In fact, she's still scary now when they manage to wheel her out. When ever I see her these days I think of a wicked witch in a fairy tale.