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I still don't know why I like Sex and the City. It's brash, it's rude, it's even soft porn-esque sometimes. And yet, I find it endlessly fascinating. It's both familiar and alien. In a way, I guess I like it because it's talking about somewhere I've never really been. I've not every really been a single. I didn't really date at school, but then I didn't really know any men who were worth dating. The only ones who were interesting didn't do it for me at all. I had absolutely no desire to find out what it was like - it worried me sometimes. And then I came to university, and met Alex. The first guy to "do it" for me. And he was not only up for it, but was completely happy to let me dictate the pace. No frustrations that he didn't want to move as fast as me or nervous feelings that I was being pushed into something. And more than that, we felt right straight away. I never worried or wondered whether he was the right guy for me - it just didn't seem like a question. I felt (and feel) secure, but SatC is all about insecurity. I'm not sure why that makes it so fascinating to me, but somehow, it just grabs me. Which explains why I've just watched 7 episodes in a row (found my brothers girlfriends DVD) and am now writing this at 1am on Christmas eve.