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One of the things I like about this job is that when it's peeing it down with rain, I can catch the bus :)

I've never been there.

Fireworks always make me feel oddly melancholy and nervous but I don't understand why. On one level I know it's because the sounds remind me or make me think of the sounds of a city of war. Sitting at home on November the 5th I think of Sarajevo, of the destruction of streets, of the TV footage of war reporters in the hills watching the city being destroyed. This is what war would sound like, I think.

What I don't understand is *why* it has such a strong effect on me. I wasn't young enough to be hugely impressionable at the time of Bosnia, 10 or so by then if I remember correctly. Or is that still an age at which fears are formed? Or was there another conflict in my earlier childhood? One that I was too young to remember the name of, but remember the sound of perfectly? Help me out, you older people.