Testing

[tinyjo]

I've got a doctors appointment today. 4:30. And now I'm getting nervous about it. Trouble is, if I do get diagnosed as having a thyroid problem, that would be great for me. It would mean that a whole bunch of problematic things would turn out to be treatable instead of just annoying. And I don't just mean my weight, although that's a big part of it, but things like my memory, my lack of energy, even my breathlessness might all clear up on their own. But that's the problem. I really want it. I'm trying hard not to but I do. This is part of the reason that I've been resistant to the idea that there might be a medical component to my weight problems for years - if we test it and it turns out to be false after all then I'll be crushed because by that point, I've bought into the idea. It doesn't help that I've actually had a sudden marked spike in my weight which I haven't figured out a cause for - I don't think my diet has changed and I've been going swimming but I've put on a stone in a month. Not good.

In a way, it's ridiculous to get worked up about it. Either way, testing isn't going to change anything. Observing, in this case, won't change the conditions. If there is an imbalance then we'll know about it and if not, well, nothing's any different than it was yesterday.

Perhaps part of it is the linguistic link. There's a test and a desired outcome from my point of view. I hate failing tests. Always have. I worked really hard at school and generally I test well. I know it isn't that kind of test. There's no right result here, no pass/fail, no A* to be achieved but I suspect something in the back of my head is setting off that reaction again, which is not helpful. Repeat 100 times after me. A negative test (another oh so useful word) is not a failure.

Just, you know, keep your fingers crossed for me this afternoon.

Comments

[ginger-princess.livejournal.com]

Good luck love - I'm going to get checked out for PCOs once I've moved - convinced I've got them and that they're the cause of stuff. You want answers - hopefully you'll get them. xxx

[andyluke.livejournal.com]

Of course. fondest regards.

[lily-owl.livejournal.com]

Hey thanks for the lj help in answering the question I posted. Sorry to read about your health. *crosses fingers for you* Get well soon.

[tinyjo.livejournal.com]

Any time! And thank *you* for taking the time to stop by :) I'm pleased to say, the doctor was very nice, although I won't get the test results for a couple of weeks.

How did it go?

[pinata23.livejournal.com]

Hope you're OK, whatever the result.
If it's any consolation, I don't think that the diagnosis and medication is a magic bullet. OK, so I'm hyper-thyroid, but I was tired before I was diagnosed, and I'm tired now. About all that has changed is that my heart rate has gone down (at 120bpm it weren't going to go up!), and I've put on a stone.
Anyway, hope you're OK with whatevery the result is.

[leora.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I understand that. I've had a lot of medical tests, and often hoped for one result or the other. And every now and then, not been sure what to hope for. But I do think it's better to find out and work with what you have. Even if emotionally, it isn't always.

I hope things work out well, however they work out.

[iruineverything.livejournal.com]

good luck with the results. as you say, failing a thyroid test is not a "failure" -- whichever way you look at it, there are positives. Either you've got a thyroid problem, which means an explanation for lots of the things which are troubling you -- or you haven't, which means you don't have a chronic condition requiring medication. So it seems to have good outcomes either way!

Hope it turns out for the best anyway.