tinyjo: (Default)
2017-09-24 01:44 pm

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I keep feeling like I'm going to post some sort of political rant here during the week and then by the time I get to it on Sundays, that's not what I want to talk about. I guess that's a good thing, but still, it feels slightly odd somehow. I guess it's not like I'd be saying much that isn't said elsewhere so if I don't feel the need to let of steam about it by the time I get to it, that's fine.

New school is still going really well - they are bizarrely respectful of my time! I was asked to go to governors meeting this week to talk about the new server and I was totally happy to do that - it seemed like a perfectly reasonable request. The head was so apologetic that it would take up my evening though and offered unprompted for me to take my PPA at home in exchange! So definitely still feeling good about the move :) Now that I've mostly got rid of the new workplace cold, I'm feeling pretty on top of things too and I am definitely feeling like I'm starting to get the measure of my class. I definitely need to do a seating move around at half term - now that I know them, there are a few personalities which could do with being split up - but it's nothing too terrible. I am even quite looking forward to the residential!
tinyjo: (tiny kitn)
2017-09-17 03:26 pm

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Have been full of cold for most of this week but just about managed to get through it, thank goodness! I think my class are starting to get used to me and my expectations, which is good, but they've got a long way to go before SATS, particularly in calculation! I had a lovely, lazy day yesterday, sitting on the sofa with kittens, doing very little work, but it does mean I've left myself quite a few weekend tasks to do today - I need to think about rebalancing my workload a little bit to manage this 5 day week thing a bit more effectively. This weekend, I've been mostly conserving energy in the evenings due to the cold, but I am going to have to try to plan a bit more housework in during the week now that I don't have Friday to catch up with. I suppose in theory, there's the alternative of getting someone in to do some cleaning but I'll wait and see how the new salary settles in before going for anything quite so decadent :)
tinyjo: (Queen of Cups)
2017-09-10 04:08 pm

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Well, the first week is done and I'm really pleased with how it went. The kids seems lovely - a little boisterous but very engaged with their learning. I'd forgotten how much they learn in a year though - they seem very young to me right now! All the staff were really welcoming, which was lovely and I feel like it's going to be a really positive working environment. I've got two TAs to work with (one 4 days a week and a different one on Fridays) and *they* both seem nice, so all in all, I feel like it's been a pretty good start. I was very knackered by Friday - I'd forgotten what working full weeks was like - but hopefully that won't last. I also picked up a mini-cold but that seems to have mostly gone already, fortunately. Slightly annoyingly, I realised that I needed to re-plan English for the week coming up because half the class had already studied the book I chose, but it didn't take much work, so not the end of the world. Next week is baseline assessment tests, which should be interesting!
tinyjo: (relaxing)
2017-09-03 04:15 pm

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Am putting the finishing touches to plans for my first week at new school. Trying not to be too nervous - and being helped by the cats who have been doing lots of keeping me company while I work. Even as we speak, Clare is headbutting my fingers, suggesting that rather than typing, I should be stroking. Alex came in and helped me finish off the classroom on Friday and that is now looking really up to scratch. There's still a few things to sort out (and a few that I forgot to order) but there's two days of inset to get that sorted out in. I'm sure it'll all be fine, but I'm definitely in keyed up anticipation mode.

Have managed to have quite a good holiday over all - not much time definitively off, but quite a lot of time for being relaxed and doing reading as well as getting things done. I finished The Grace Of Kings and quite enjoyed it, although not enough to immediately start on the next one in the series. It definitely had charm, and I liked Kuni (although the book lets him off his collaborator past very easily). I could have done with spending rather less time with Mata, tbh, as he felt pretty lacking in redeeming features from the get go, although I did occasionally feel sorry for him. Still, it definitely had something to it. It felt not unakin to Song of Fire & Ice actually, in that it's attempting to tell a grand, sweeping story about a time of dramatic upheaval and to give you both an overview and a sense of active involvement in the action. It doesn't give you the same depth of character as SOFAI but, on the other hand, the level of gratuitous violence is considerably less and the story manages not to get bogged down and then lost up it's own arse, so I would say it's more successful. Actually, now I've made the comparison, I can definitely see this as a TV series - it's very episodic.
tinyjo: (who's a rock star?)
2017-08-27 05:37 pm

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Went to the cinema for the first time in a long while last weekend and saw Baby Driver with Alex. Apart from one bit toward the end which I felt like went on a bit long/was a bit over the top, I really enjoyed it - the way the sound track was used was really effective. I guess that is the main thing about the movie, but it really did work well. That's not to say that it didn't have problems - the female character was basically a cypher and I found her easy and immediate commitment to Baby to be rather unbelievable. I found his relationship with his foster dad, as something that felt more interesting and more earned.

This week, I've been mostly watching poker online - ever since Vicky Coren-Mitchell's win at San Remo a few years ago, I've really rather enjoyed watching it on TV, and today's final table is really fun (in a pretty crazy way). I've even played a bit online for play money, which can be really fun, although never for real money - I'm OK, but not that good. It's the thing where you can most tell if I've had a drink - I rarely notice any kind of diminished capacity from alcohol but it definitely makes me more reckless and less good at judging the odds.
tinyjo: (sunflower)
2017-08-17 10:41 am
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Knowledge and skills

I have been whiling away some of my holiday time reading around some of the knowledge vs skills debate that's been going on among teachers on twitter for the last couple of months. Most of the people I follow already have been on the knowledge side of the debate and I've felt like, more so than when looking at politics or similar, I've had to work quite hard to break out of that bubble to find the people with the opposing views (something I think I'm only beginning to succeed at). I haven't come to any conclusions or anything, or my own contribution to the debate yet, but my reading did spark the memory of an anecdote which feels relevant to me about my Year 13 mocks.

We studied Literature of Protest as one of our English Lit modules (that was where I first read the Handmaids Tale) and as well as our set text work there was an unseen texts paper. For our mock, the unseen text for that module was a poem called "White Poetess" by Musaemura Zimunya (I've looked, and sadly, I can't find a copy of the poem online) asking us to comment on how effectively the poet's protest was communicated to the reader. Briefly, the poem scorns the titular white poetess for her simple, superior view of Africa and Africans and for her romanticisation of the beauty of the landscape without acknowledging the Africans who live there. I wasn't particularly great at poetry analysis and I cobbled together a rough plan and had written nearly a page of it when I had one of the only genuine lightbulb moments of my own that I remember in my education. In the last stanza, the poem talks about the poetess going home and writing about "the Rhodesian veld". The word had been nagging at me for a while, and I suddenly remembered what Rhodesia was, and what the deliberate use of that word meant, particularly given that the poet had mentioned Zimbabwe earlier on. That one piece of knowledge unlocked the whole poem for me, brought the rest of the text into focus, to the extent that I remember actually crossing out the waffly essay I'd written so far and starting again.

When we went over the mock in class after they'd been marked, it transpired that I was the only person in my 12 person class who knew anything about Rhodesia or what the use of that word signified and quite a few of the other students claimed the question was unfair because there was no reason they should be expected to have this piece of random knowledge anyway. I have no idea where I'd picked it up - we hadn't studied the empire at all in the history I was doing at school, but I always have been a sponge for random information (although not science facts, oddly) so I imagine I read it somewhere and it stuck.

I'm still not entirely sure where this anecdote fits into the current knowledge vs skills debate. My knowledge unlocked the poem for me in a very powerful way. I only rarely connect to poetry as a form, and that sense of sudden understanding was exciting and precious. I kept a copy of the poem afterwards, which I still have today, and as you can see, the memory is fresh in my mind, so on the surface it seems to argue towards the teaching of knowledge.

I'm not so sure though. I do think there was some validity in the other students complaints that the question was unfair. The world is absolutely full of random knowledge like that - it was purest co-incidence that I happened to know of it and I don't think there could have been any reasonable expectation that our English Lit teacher would equip us with even a fraction of the possible historical allusions which might come up in the poetry of protest. And it wasn't that piece of knowledge alone which brought the poem to life in that moment for me - it was the skills of literary analysis which I'd been taught which allowed me to understand the depth of what the poet was doing with that word choice. Both knowledge and skills were vital to that moment. Most of the students knew a little about the British Empire - would it not have been reasonable to have included a footnote with the specific definition of Rhodesian?

Where I'm working now is at a very different stage in the learning journey of my students than I was at that point and I definitely think that there is value in exposing the children to a wide range of facts at this stage - who knows what will stick? But of course, as the possessor of a brain which is naturally filled with random facts, this is not so hard for me to accomplish and, given my teaching style, actually seems to be basically inevitable. Maybe the conclusion I'm coming to is, in this knowledge/skills tug-of-war, perhaps different teachers need to focus on different things. I often think about skills in my lesson planning but that's partly because I know that the knowledge content will be there anyway but that if I don't think about making the skills of using it explicit that won't happen automatically - other teachers are probably the other way around.
tinyjo: (webdesigner - chez geek)
2017-08-11 11:44 am
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It's interesting, moving to a school which is much more free about how teachers run their classrooms because it gives me space to think not "what do I have to do" when I'm getting ready for next year, but "what do I want to do". It hit me again just now, thinking about morning work - I started off by thinking "what shall I do about morning work this year" and then moved on to "hang on, is that even a thing in my new school?" to *then* thinking "well, do I want it to be a thing? Was it useful?" It feels odd that should be the last thought rather than the first one, but that was rather how I got conditioned by the old place - we had a huge "must" list which I would never have had time to do all of, so it was about prioritising which things would be most visible and/or would take the least effort; what was most efficacious didn't really come into it. It's the same with displays - now I don't have a list of displays every classroom should have which is longer than the number of boards I have, I'm starting to actually think about what I want my displays to be for.

Then again, I'm leaning on the side of having morning work (tasks for them to do when they come in for registration) - it's a good opportunity for short burst practice of skills and it really helps get them settled and in a good headspace for learning - but that's because, having been doing it for about 6 years, I know how to make it work well. When I started, I found it of very little value and time consuming to prepare and I resented it, but that was because I had no real idea what it should be for, other than keeping the kids occupied, and so I couldn't properly select tasks for it. So the must list did have some value too - it pushed me to try something and work to get it right that I might not otherwise have done. On the third hand, surely that could have been achieved by better communication from the people on my SLT and leading my team about what the point was and what good morning work looked like rather than me groping towards it. I guess that's the whole point of me moving up to SLT myself now - can I help people to develop good/useful practice without descending to the must list?
tinyjo: (jasmine)
2017-07-09 01:09 pm

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Friday was moving up day - my new class and I spent an hour together and I think that if they can curb their tendency to talk over each other then we'll get on fine. They were very curious - I spent at least half of the time answering questions like "what's your favourite food" and "which youtubers do you like" and so on, but I think that's pretty inevitable. Usually I'd know a bit about them already and they about me from our encounters elsewhere in school but moving to a new school means that they're total unknowns. As I suspected, they're a lot less culturally diverse than any class I've taught before - all white, although not quite all English as there are one or two European children there.

As I also had a meeting for maths leaders in the partnership in the morning, it was also a reasonable dip of the toe into the idea of working on Fridays again, and I am cautiously optimistic that I'll cope OK with it as long as I make sure I don't get to bed too late after games night. I had thought about what we were doing at Brownies on Thursday while I waited around for the governors meeting and as long as I make it out of the gates by 5pm, arriving on time to set up should be perfectly do-able so that's good. I think also, it will actually make Brownies seem less of a chore - currently, it comes at the end of a day off, which makes it tricky to use that for long weekends and also means that I can't just totally chill out on my day off if I want to. Having at the end of a school day felt much less disruptive/intrusive and hopefully that will happen again.

Am feeling practically green fingered because after having a weekly task to do some garden work since about February, I have *finally* got to the point where there are no areas where the weeds have taken over (there are still weeds, they're just more under control and smaller, ground cover type things) and all the paths are clear. I even dead headed the roses today and I have been actually remembering to water the garden every couple of days in this uncharacteristically dry summer, which means that nearly all the plants I bought at Gardeners World are still going strong!
tinyjo: (cat don't care)
2017-07-02 12:40 pm
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Went to training at my new school on Thursday and the positive vibe definitely continues - I have a really good feeling about the move. We sorted out my application for the leadership course they want to put me on next year and they're right behind the writing assessment project I've got planned which will take forward what I've done this year. Also, on a geeky note, they want to buy me what looks like an *amazing* smart TV thing to use as my interactive board for my classroom, which would be super exciting. I really hope it arrives before the holidays so I can have a play with it over the break as it'll be quite different from what I've used before. Obviously the shiny video on the product website is always a bit misleading but it does look like I should be able to do some really quite neat stuff with it eventually, including controlling stuff on the kids screens and so on.

I am really enjoying the garden at the moment and I can't get over how much more light it gets now that we've had the horse chestnut next door cut back. It does mean that the decking is in full sun in the middle of the day though so I might have to buy a patio umbrella to sit under - it's not good for the laptop, if nothing else! Generally though, it's all looking really nice and the kittens love playing out there. They're only allowed out under supervision at the minute, but soon they'll be having their ops and then we hope to retire the litter tray - not a minute too soon!
tinyjo: (jasmine)
2017-06-18 07:38 pm

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Very garden heavy weekend this weekend, as Mum and Dad came to visit and Mum, Jeremy and I went to Gardeners World Live. We had a lovely time and did some very successful shopping but boy was the heat oppressive! I don't remember finding a gardens show such hard work since the first year we went to Hampton Court. Still, it was a really lovely day, with lots of beautiful gardens and plants, especially some of the borders.

I managed to buy quite a few good shade loving plants for my garden (and stuck to my budget!) but actually, being out here today, I hadn't realised how much the tree surgery had done in terms of reducing the shade on a lot of the garden - a lot of beds which were previously shady pretty much all day are now only really partial shade, which opens up quite a lot of options. Planting things up has also necessitated getting rid of a lot of weeds, including absolutely masses of creeping buttercup, but hopefully now that I'm a bit on top of it, things will be better. The trick next year will be to make sure that I keep ahead of the leaves in winter (which shouldn't be so bad anyway) so that I don't spend lots of spring clearing the paths and so on and letting weeds in the beds get out of hand.

I was also kind of chuffed that we managed to do the show experience in my Leaf, despite the fact that the NEC itself has no chargers, which surprised me. Still, a convenient charger on the M42 allowed us to recover post show with cold drinks and a seat in the shade, while charging the car up enough that I could run the air con on the way home :) Lucky that we had lots of sunshine on the solar panels at home to keep us going!
tinyjo: (cassie by jeremy)
2017-06-11 01:29 pm

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Well, that was unexpected! In a weird way, although a Tory/DUP government will be pretty dreadful in the short term, I do feel glad that they will end up getting the blame for Brexit, which they absolutely deserve. I feel like this is the most uncertain I've felt about politics for a while, but in a hopeful way for a change, which is nice. Emotionally, I was sort of braced for being deeply depressed about the result and so now I'm a bit sort of unsure what to do with myself, like having an unexpected holiday.

It won't last long, in any case, because now is report writing season, one of my least favourite parts about being a teacher. At least we're not getting moderated this year, which means I don't have to keep up rigorous marking in writing and everything else we've sort of let slide at this point, but still, it is a massive pain that I really wish I didn't have to do. I wonder what reports look like at my new school! I've been thinking that about lots of things lately :)

Had an experimental cooking week over half term trying to find more vegetarian recipes to add to our regular cycle of cooking but wasn't massively inspired by the things we tried, although the mushroom curry will probably make it with a bit of tweaking. I might sacrifice some of the health benefits by swapping brown rice for white - I know the former is better for you, but I'm more likely to make it and eat it with the latter, I think. Anyone got any veggie recipes they'd like to recommend? I don't really like squash or nuts, which rather restricts my choices in that area :)
tinyjo: (jasmine)
2017-05-28 02:23 pm

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At last, there is sunshine again! I feel like I've been waiting for ever for good weather but now that it's here, I'm not actually getting to enjoy it as much as I normally do because the kittens aren't currently allowed outside so I have to choose - outside I can bask in the sunshine, inside I can fuss/play with the kittens. So far, the kittens are tending to win :) They continue to be super adorable, with a side order of a little bit naughty.

I feel like although this has been a 5 week term, it's felt as long as a 7 week one, which doesn't bode well for next term, which really is a 7 week one. And then I'll be leaving, which is a weird and crazy idea. It's still exciting, but I kind of wish there wasn't the delay. It's not that I'd like to leave now, before the end of the year, I'd just like to be closer in time to the new thing, I guess. At the same time, the amount of stuff I need to hand over is super daunting. I'm going to try to start getting a proper handle on that this half term. Oh, and reports time is upon us again. I should be feeling more cheerful, and I think this entry misrepresents how cheerful I really am, but boy do I seem to have a lot on this summer!

BTW, if you saw the truncated version of this entry, that was kitten posting :)
tinyjo: (laden coal creature)
2017-05-14 04:42 pm

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Didn't manage to post last week because I was just feeling very depressed about the state of the world. The whole snap general election thing just fills me with despair. whining )

I still haven't decided what to do about LiveJournal. I haven't agreed to the new ToS yet and I'm not very keen about leaving my private info on there to potentially be snooped around in. Bottom line, I no longer trust the LJ people to keep my data safe but I'm loath to delete my journal there and loose touch with the people who I'm still friends with there. Maybe I'll keep the account but delete the posts - that should be fairly safe, right?

Hopefully, now I'm past my period and SATS are over (what a great combination!) I should be able to cheer up a little bit - after all, there should be summer sun any minute now, right? The garden's looking lovely right now with all the alliums out and the kittons have been really adorable today, having an explore downstairs and doing lots of snuggling and purring and demanding fuss. What I really need is just a bit more energy - if the sun would come out, that would be perfect.
tinyjo: (who's a rock star?)
2017-04-30 12:13 pm

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Back to school was kind of a pain this week - my class are mostly lovely, except for 2 boys who're getting more and more badly behaved in the run up to SATs and are just really tiring and hard work. Still, the week didn't go too badly, it's just a bit more tiring than usual.

If I'm honest, the bit more tiring than usual bit was definitely contributed to by the kittens, who've been doing a certain amount of 3am pouncing, which is considerably less adorbs than daytime pouncing, I can tell you. Yesterday, we decided that we'd probably had sufficient bonding and have moved them into the spare bedroom. Less adorable curling up on Alex's shoulder, but on the other hand, a full nights sleep, which was definitely in order! I'm currently typing this while being used as an adventure playground so they're getting plenty of company :) We're hoping to introduce them to Charlie today - Jeremy and Tim have lent us a kitten playpen type thing to keep them apart while they sniff at eachother and hopefully it will go ok. Charlie came upstairs to the bedroom last night and did a lot of sniffing where the kittens were but didn't growl so I'm cautiously optimistic.

Had a meeting at my new school on Friday and still feeling very good about that decision. Lots to do and think about in terms of a project for next year, but feeling like there's going to be lots of support and a really good atmosphere in school, so that's good. My classroom's a weird shape though so that will take some thinking about over the holiday.
tinyjo: (Cassiecat)
2017-04-23 06:28 pm

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So, I was going to post something interesting, I'm sure, but we got new kittens! It was a suddenly availability after their planned adoption fell through and they're super super tiny - only 6 weeks old. They are basically adorbs and so I have been unable to do anything useful for the past few days :)



The ginger/cream one is Harry and the tortie is Clare

tinyjo: (wine)
2017-04-02 01:10 pm

A busy fortnight...

So, I didn't manage to post last weekend, because I was having a really lovely weekend off. I'd had two interviews the week before and ended up not getting either of them. I really didn't do a great job with the teaching session on the first one - combination of nerves and over planning and they ended up going with an internal candidate who, to be fair, was probably more experienced than me as well so that was fine. The second one went fairly well, I thought, but I ended up not getting the job, which I guess is just how it goes sometimes. I didn't actually get any detailed feedback on that one, although I probably could have asked for it, but I was feeling a bit battered by the week. I'd forgotten what an up and down, stressful experience interviewing can be and two in a week took quite a lot out of me.

As such, I was quite pleased to have the chance to completely forget my job hunt for a bit and go to London to graduate. I had occasionally wondered this term why I was going to all the trouble of going to the ceremony but actually, I'm really glad I went with my instinct and did it. I even got quite choked up by the whole experience - partly, it was that time of the month, but I have always found the OU message that education is for everyone to be really inspiring and it felt really nice to finish off my degree with something a little special like that.

After the ceremony, we went for a really rather good dinner with my folks before seeing them back to Liverpool street and onto their train and heading for a hotel in Kensington for an overnight stay. On the Saturday, it was a really perfect day for me to enjoy myself - sunny and bright but with just enough spring chill in the air to make walking a pleasure. We headed out with no real plan in mind other than to end up near Imperial college and to catch some pokemon and ended up having a gentle saunter through West Bromwich cemetery, which was just lovely. I find Victorian cemeteries like that fascinating - the ways the memorialised the dead speak of such different ideas about life and society from mine that I find them fascinating.

After that, we ended up making our way to the V&A where we spent an absolutely lovely 4 hours or so wandering round, enjoying their beautiful Islamic Art gallery, admiring the costumes through the ages (I think if I time travel, the only era where I'd quite like the the clothes I'd have to wear would be the 20s) and being fascinated by the Rapid Reaction Collection, which has a selection of items acquired in the last 5 years which the musuem staff have collected as saying something interesting about design or culture, including a 3d printed gun and a pussy hat. Definitely recommend it for your visit to London, [livejournal.com profile] elyssa and [livejournal.com profile] stevieg. We rounded off the weekend with an evening at the Festival of Bad Adhoc Hypotheses, where I learned that aliens are using our junk DNA as long term storage to back up their kittie pictures, and other, equally fun suggestions. On the way out of London, I caught the last Magikarp needed to make a Gyrados literally from the bus and all in all, it felt like a really perfect day and a wonderful way to recharge my batteries.

And I really needed to recharge my batteries because on Thursday I'd fired off a speculative application for a teaching job in a village school which I hadn't managed to visit, what with everything going on, but which mentioned developing a leadership role in the description and sounded potentially interesting and on Tuesday I found out that I'd been shortlisted for an interview on Friday. I actually found it the easiest interview task that I'd had to plan because they'd been quite clear in what they wanted to see without being too constraining - pick a topic (space, mountains or chocolate) and teach a lesson to develop writing skills in the area of poetry, characterisation or setting and then in the interview tell us how you would develop it from there. I particularly liked that they acknowledged when setting the task that you might not get to a written outcome in 30 minutes - it all added up to something where they'd clearly thought about what they wanted to see and whether you could realistically get at it from that constrained 30 minute teaching experience. I ended up doing Space and teaching a session where we created some colonists to go on the Mars One colony expedition, which would lead into lots of story writing as well as a tonne of cross curricular stuff if you made it a unit and they were very happy with how it went. In the interview, they explained that the job would be as head of KS2, 3rd SLT member in a small school and teaching Y5/6, all of which fit very well with what I'd been imagining when I first started job hunting, and they'd be offering a chance to do leadership training as well. Overall, by the time I headed home after a tour of the school with the head teacher, I knew I wanted the job so I was back to the up and down stress rollercoaster feeling but this time, everything clicked into place right and they offered me the job! I was so happy to be able to accept and now the only thing I need to think about is how much handover work I'm going to have to do!
tinyjo: (Default)
2017-03-19 11:49 am

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I am now motivating myself to do tasks by rewarding myself with Stardew Valley. It's such a pleasing game and totally addictive! I've been playing quite a bit in the evenings this week to help me to calm my nerves about next week, which is looking pretty crazy. I have *two* interviews at new schools, one to be a deputy head, one to be maths lead, and then I'm graduating my OU degree on Friday and going to the Festival of Bad Adhoc Hypotheses on Saturday. I guess ideally, I'll have something to celebrate as well but right now, I'm feeling very nervous. I think that I don't come over well in the "teach a 20 minute session" bits of these interviews because my teaching style works best when I know the kids well and is better in longer than shorter sessions, but hopefully my charming interview manner will be good enough to get past that... Keep your fingers crossed for me :)
tinyjo: (Default)
2017-03-12 08:46 pm

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Have accidentally spent all day playing Stardew Valley instead of doing Big Write marking! I am now watching River Cottage as it's really put me in the mood :) I have chickens called Buck, Buuck and Bugurk, which pleases me very much.

We went to see Logan last night and it was really an amazing film. It reminded me of a really good piece of fan fiction in that it spent zero time introducing the characters or the world, just really focused on the character story it wanted to tell and what it would be like if this crazy premise was actually happening to real people. It's something that Iron Man has toyed with (Tony's PTSD) but not really committed to. I actually cried a couple of times and I'd thoroughly recommend it but it's definitely not a light hearted night out.
tinyjo: (cassie by jeremy)
2017-03-04 04:25 pm

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Thank you for the lovely comments on my last entry. Sadly, things moved fast and Cassie continued to deteriorate and not eat over the weekend. She spent quite a bit of time curled up in my lap, sleeping and having strokes, which was good, but she was obviously in a very bad way. We took her into the vet on Monday, who told us that her kidneys were shutting down. They took her to cat hospital and put her on fluids to see how much remaining kidney function there was but when we checked in the next day, her blood work hadn't improved at all, meaning that her kidneys were basically completely non functional. There was nothing that they could really do for her so I went after school and sat with her for an hour or so giving her strokes and fuss before the vet put her on my lap and gave her an overdose of anaesthetic.

It's the first time that I've lost a pet in that way - we had goldfish, who used to get regularly pinched by herons, but that's nothing like the same. I cried a lot on Monday and Tuesday and was pretty fragile most of Wednesday and the rest of the week. Now I just get ambushed by odd rushes of sadness. Charlie has been doing her best to look after us by coming and sitting with me on the sofa and so on but I miss Cassie very much.

I have quite a few versions of this pic where she's sitting on my lap giving me a very definite *look*


And quite a few where she's curled up on the bed. My photo albums all together seem to suggest she spent quite a lot of time chilling out and relaxing, which is a good thought.




Rare photo with her eyes open <3
Cassie is queen
tinyjo: (cat don't care)
2017-02-26 10:30 am

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Am very worried about Cassie at the minute - she's barely eating suddenly and is looking very little and old :( We're taking her into the vet for a checkup but I'm really worried about what he's going to say. She's 17 at least and she's had a good time with us, but still. She still makes purrs though and doesn't seem to be in pain or anything, just not really eating.